Monday, April 2, 2012

Ok...I must confess.  I got frustrated today.  It was with the lady on the phone at the place that sends us our state fingerprint results.  She wasn't very understanding of my plight that we NEEDED these results NOW so that we can get them to EE so we can get our boy!!!  She said they won't re-send them until it's been at least 10 business days.  It's only been 7 today.  Those of you who know me well, know that patience is not a virtue I possess much of.  I don't even really pray for it anymore.  I'm pretty much resigned to the fact that, like Paul, I will have a thorn in my flesh and mine just happens to be "lacking patience".  So, my phone conversation with her did not end as chipperly, chippily, pleasantly as it could have.  I was a little ticked. 

I confessed it to the Lord shortly after I abruptly hung up the phone (I did NOT hang up on her, I just hung up quickly after saying goodbye) (and muttering "thanks for nothing" under my breath - AFTER I had pressed "end"!!!)  He reminded me of the devotional I read last night that said (in part) "Talk with me about every aspect of your day, including your feelings.  Remember that your ultimate goal is not to control or fix everything around you; it is to keep communing with Me...Do not let your to-do list (written or mental) become an idol directing your life.  Instead, ask My Spirit to guide you moment by moment.  He will keep you close to Me."  Ouch.  My "to do" list is long and pretty much on my time-table.  Relinquish.  Relinquish.  Relinquish. 

So, I relinquished.  Went to run some errands, picked Adley up from school early to do his therapy and while he was doing the part he does by himself, I checked the mail.  Guess what?  BIG mail day.  HUGE!! 
We got: 3 passports (the kids'), our State fingerprint clearance and the letter from the USCIS saying they'd received our paperwork/application and they would be sending us a letter soon to tell us to go get fingerprints!  (oh, and 2 cute tank-tops that I'd ordered for workouts!  BONUS!!!)  Did I mention that I got an email from FedEx this afternoon saying that our paperwork had been delivered to EE and into the hands of the person it was intended to go to?  Did I also mention that our wire went through with the initial money?  Did I mention that we could be going to meet our son VERY soon?? (like within the next 6 weeks or sooner...) 

When I relinquish, the Lord is able to work His plan AND get the glory!!!  When I intervene...sometimes I might be tempted to take some of the credit for the cool stuff HE wants to do/is doing.  I do NOT want to get in His way, b/c He wants to do so much more than I could ever get done and to do it FOR me!!!!!!  WHY OH WHY do I continue to have to learn this lesson?  Please, Lord, make me a FAST learner!!  It's the prayer I pray for my kids...guess I need to include myself in that one too.

1 comment:

  1. And this is probably why I like you so much- but everything you described about yourself and your phone conversation and "ending" could be reflected in my own mirror :)